Is how I feel about everything right now. School is killing me, and I'm swamped at work. I feel like I am barely treading water. It's so frustrating to me because I'm a total perfectionist and I don't have enough time to do anything with the level of detail that I like to.
On the TTC front, I have to admit at this point I feel indifferent. Do any of you ever feel this way? I have totally forgotten why I was even so excited to start on this journey and I really just feel numb about it all. Is that wrong? I worry that maybe it means deep down inside I'm not ready, or that I don't want it enough? Or maybe its just an ego-defense mechanism kicking in? Meh.. who knows?
Only bright spot of this rather dismal week...
Weigh In Week 7
Previous Weight: 158.8
Current Weight: 157.8
Lost this Week: 1.0
Total Lost: 7.2
YAY!
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10 comments:
Definitely hear you on the indifference and numbness sometimes. (((hugs)))
Oh, Lindsay, I totally get you. I went into TTC totally excited and optimistic.
But TTC for a long time can wear you down. For a while, I was feeling like I really didn't care anymore. I think I was just angry.
Now, I'm back to feeling (sort of) optimistic, and hoping we get somewhere with all of this.
Hang in there. ::hugs::
Wow! You are rock'n at weight loss...me not so much! I delayed going to my weekly Weight Watcher meeting until Friday (was suppose to go today) so I have more time to detox after the crap I ate on the mission trip! I did teach cycling instead though!
Congrats on the weight loss! You are doing great!
I'm sorry to hear things are so chaotic for you right now. TTC is such a roller coaster that you feel EVERY emotion there can possibly be. I'm thinking about you and praying for you!
Hey I gave you an award!
Check you out, another pound. Im so proud of you!
I have felt the same way at times throughout the TTC process. I think it is definitely a defense mechanism. We have to tell ourselves those things so it doesn't hurt as much. You are not alone. I hope you have a better day tommorrow.
I think the numbness and indifference is just a part of this whole horrible process. It does not mean you don't really want it. ((hugs))
I'm way numb about it - I can't even let myself get hopeful until about 6 months after H gets his surgery. But YAY for weight loss! :)
congrats on the weight loss- go you! Keep it up!
TTC sucks. I am sorry you are feeling numb. I've definately been there. ((hugs))
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