Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Disappointment

I'll be honest, I don't fail very often. I learned at an early age that if I really wanted something, and I was willing to put in the time, I could probably achieve it. This is one of the things that made my battle with infertility so hard for me to cope with. It was something that no matter how hard I tried, there was nothing I could do to make myself get pregnant.

Today I was dealt my first big professional failure. Me and a team of engineers have been working for months to prepare a big negotiations. There was a lot of pressure for the negotiations to be a successful as the project is very high profile. After 10 long and intense days of negotiations, we made the contractor an offer last friday. We gave the contractor a week to accept or reject our offer. Well this afternoon we got the official response...Rejection. I knew it was coming as the negotiations had not gone smoothly, never the less it was a BIG disappointment. Sigh.

5 comments:

Lindsey B said...

I am so sorry.

I have a very similar mentality and IF had the same effect on me. I also just dealt with a not so great project at work so I know those feelings too.

Just remember you tried your hardest and that this does not negate all of your other wonderful work.

Tiffany said...

Uhg, I'm so sorry. That's so frustrating! Just curious, what kind of engineering do you do?

Kate said...

I'm so sorry for your disappointment, Linds. It's so hard when you do the best you can and you still fall short of where you want to be. It's humbling, which hurts for sure. I always try to find something I can learn when this happens to me, then it's not really a failure at all. (((hugs)))

Kristen said...

I'm sorry. I am the same way and totally know that feeling!

Happiness Is... said...

That stinks - sorry :(