2 weeks from today

2 weeks from today, DH and I will be welcoming our little baby girl to the world! Last Thursday we went in for an ultrasound and the Dr confirmed the Lillian is still breech. He said because of the fluid level around her the likelihood she will flip at this point in the pregnancy is pretty slim. Assuming she doesn't flip this week or next, we are scheduled for a c-section at 6:30am on Feb 2, 2011.

The doctor is on vacation Feb 4, 5, and 6th. Although I am not due until Feb 7th, he didn't want to risk me going into labor while he was gone and having one of his partners perform the surgery. He didn't want to do the c-section on the 3rd, since he'd be leaving the next day so Feb 2nd it is!!! So little Lillian will be a ground hog which seems appropriate since she doesn't want to poke her head out. She'll also share a birthday with my father which is pretty cool!!

I was pretty disappointed at first because I have been dreaming about a natural birth since I first got pregnant, but in the last few days I've come to peace with the situation. I've been doing lots of research on c-sections, breastfeeding after c-sections and recovery from c-section. I have my weekly appointment tomorrow and have about 25 questions for the doctor. Let's all hope its a patient man.

2 weeks and counting!

Frustrated

The baby still hasn't turned head down. If she doesn't turn, I'll have to have a c-section. The midwives and the doctors they work with will deliver a frank breech baby (which she is), but not if its your first vaginal delivery. I'm 36 weeks today so I have a little time for her to turn, but we're getting down to the wire. I have my weekly appointment with the midwives Thursday, and if she hasn't turned by then, I'll have to meet with one of the OBs they work with and get an ultrasound so we can establish a game plan.

Can't something just go normal for once? I really really really want this baby to come into the world the traditional way. There was something about conceiving with so much help that has really driven me to want to experience a birth with as little intervention as possible. And now I feel like my body may be failing me again. Its so discouraging.

To add insult to injury, my mother could not be happier. I swear. She was never comfortable with me seeing midwives instead of a OBGYN. Which is ironic because her sister was a midwife before she passed away, so she knows what training they have and how capable they are. But never the less she is a doctor, so she's wants me cared for by doctors.  She's told me like 6 times that i should just go ahead and schedule the c-section date, and that this baby is not going to turn. I'm like, oh geez, thanks. Way to think positive.

Obviously I'm going to do what's in the best interest of the baby, but I just wish she would turn so I could at least try to deliver her vaginally with little intervention. Please say a little prayer for us.

Enraged

I am sooooo annoyed. I ordered my crib and dresser in September, at the time it was supposed to ship late October. October rolls around and I get a post card from them stating the furniture has been back-ordered until end of December. I call freaking out and they promise me we'll get it at the end of December. After calling in early December to check on the order, they decided to split the order since the dresser was in stock. So the dresser is here. I called today because I still hadn't gotten a shipment notice on the crib and they tell me now its back-ordered until the end of FEBUARY!!! I am so angry I could scream!!!

Of course the agent couldn't tell me anything other than I am at the top of the list and definitely should get one from the next batch. Which is of course what I heard about the December delivery. So now with 5 weeks to go I have to figure out what the hell I'm going to do!!! Grrrrr.

I can return the dresser and find a new set for the room. But with 5 weeks to go, how likely is it that I can really get something good in that short amount of time. Or I can just suck it up and wait for the crib hoping it comes in during February/March. I have a bassinet that I can use for her to sleep in before the crib gets here, but I am just worried she won't like it and we won't have a back up option.

I swear I am so mad I could SCREAM!!!

Finally DONE!

So i am happy to say the renovation are OVER!!!! Monday the closet people came out and built out all of our closets. The spray foam installers also came to spray-foam the underside of our house, so now our house is at least half well insulated ;-)

A few pictures:

New Pantry

(used to be our laundry room)

New Laundry Closet

Lillian's Closet

New Entryway Closet

New Guest Bedroom Closet

(closet is still filled with our junk but at

least its more organized junk, right? LOL)

I am so excited that everything got done before the holidays. Now I feel like I can actually relax and enjoy being at home while I am off for the week between Christmas and new years.

Work is continuing to kick my butt. Its just exhausting. But I've only got 5 weeks when I get back from the holiday break, so I should be able to make the last little haul. I am seriously BURNT OUT!

In pregnancy related news, I've begun experiencing some swelling in my ankles. I haven't had any swelling through out the pregnancy. However, last week after being on my feet for 3 hours while making oreo truffles, I had one fat ankle. This morning I woke up and the other one is a bit swollen. Not good, and definitely a sign that I need to stay off my feet more. sigh.

Exhaustion...

I am completely exhausted. I literally go to bed every night at like 8pm. The sad thing is that its not because I'm 32 weeks pregnant (<---btw how did that happen?!?), rather its because I am working 10-12 hours every day. I swear they're trying to send me into preterm labor. Its insane! I am really stressed, but I keep reminding myself I only have 2 more weeks before I take a week off for Christmas and New Years!!!! I can't wait for a little break. All of my sisters are coming in town for the holiday, so I am really excited about my little vacation.

My dresser has finally shipped from RH Baby. The very exciting news is that they just started their friends and family 20% off everything event, so I was able to call and get 20% off the crib and dresser!! 20% off makes the wait totally worth it! I can't wait to get the furniture in the baby's room. Hopefully it looks as good as I think it will.

We are also 1 week away from the house renovation being done!!!! I can't wait!!!! Next Monday the closet people are coming to build out the pantry and all the closets in the house. We also have the spray foam installers coming to spray foam the underneath of our house! We live in a raised cottage and during the winter the floors are VERY cold. We were worried about a baby crawling around on them, so we decided to take the plunge and get spray foam while the energy efficiency tax credit was still in place. After everything gets installed, I'll have about 3 days to put my house back together before all my sisters arrive for christmas! Its going to be a very busy week.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Seriously?

So we arrived in Kentucky on Monday afternoon. We stopped by to visit one of DH's aunts on our way to his family farm. We visited for about an hour and then headed to the farm to unload the car and get the dogs settled. Once we had gotten everything settled we drove into Louisville to go to the UL basketball game with one of DH's uncles. While racing to get there in time for tip off, we managed roll over a piece of steel laying in the middle of the road and blow our back tire...

The tire was obviously beyond repair. And to make matters worse, because the tires were old, we actually had to replace all 4 instead of just the one which was shredded by the piece of steel. Price to replace: $1063

This morning my husband went out to hunt on the farm. He had to drive over to the area of the farm where he was going to hunt... so he wakes up, turns on the car to warm it up, and when he gets back in it after getting dressed he notices:

The windsheild is cracked from the drivers side to the passanger side. Just got off the phone with safelight auto glass...Cost to replace: $223.

This has got to be a joke, right?

::off to search blogs for good homemade christmas gifts::

Rest and Relaxation

That is what is coming up for me... a week of rest and relaxation. I can't wait. I had another totally crazy week at work, including going in on Saturday. Grrrr. But I'm happy to report I got everything done, so I should be able to spend the next week relaxing!! I can't wait.

We're definitely making progress on Lillian's room. Please excuse the poor picture quality, I was lazy and took them with my IPhone...

PBK Carpet on the new hardwood.

Closet ready for build out.

We're also almost done the first phase of the laundry/pantry renovation. Below is the new laundry closet...

(previously this was just a normal single door closet)

New laundry closet with washer in it.

We still need to stack the dryer and then we'll put some shelving on the left side for storage of cleaning products. We thought we were going to be able to get the dryer moved this weekend, but we got sidetracked with some other things around the house. DH promises it will be done soon! I think I am going to  schedule the company to come up to build out the closets and the new pantry for the second week in December. I can't wait to be DONE!

And just for fun... a picture of me. This is from last night. My mom was hosting a sweet sixteen party for her boyfriends niece, and DH and I went to help host.