My life with a Black Lab

Sunday morning I was working away on some homework when I get a call from my Papa. He wants to know if we are still going to church? He hadn't called me during the week to let me know he wanted to go this weekend (he's not felt up to it for the last few weeks) so I told him I would throw on some clothes and be right over to pick him up. Now he called at 9:45 and Church starts at 10:00, so full panic mode sets in. I dash into the bedroom, throw on a dress, grab my keys a bolt out the door.

About 2 hours later I return home to see Maggie waiting for me at the door. Panic sets in. She is not supposed to be out of her kennel when we are not home. My husband had left for a long ride before I did and had not yet returned home. Immediately, I start walking through the house to assess the damage. She completely unmade the bed (she loves to tear the blankets and sheets off), and she had also eaten two of my headbands and a new set of hair clips (all of which had been sitting up on my dresser). Now every part of me wanted to be really mad at her, but it was my fault for leaving her out. I know better. And how can you be mad at a face as cute as that. Sigh. One day she will out grow this puppy phase.

What's in a word?

Infertility: The diminished ability or the inability to conceive and have offspring. Infertility is also defined in specific terms as the failure to conceive after a year of regular intercourse without contraception.

Infertile. Its not a word I can honestly say I have come to terms with. I don't feel infertile. On the contrary, I feel as though I should be quite fertile. I'm young, healthy, and ready. Furthermore, all tests thus far indicate that we should be fertile, so am I really considered "infertile". According to the definition above, apparently yes. And although I have been dutifully trudging toward the RE, which will in my mind solidly my infertility status, I can honestly say I don't really believe this is happening. (or more appropriately put, not happening).

I am increasingly more hopeful that we will be able to get pregnant on our own. Why? No idea. After hearing stories of people getting pregnant after their HSG, or right after they made their RE appointment, I feel like  we should get pregnant. right? I mean if the stars were going to align, it should be this post-HSG-RE-appt-made-cycle. Its got to happen eventually. Why not this cycle?

And as my hopes get increasingly higher, I try to prepare myself for the possibility of another BFN cycle. For my hopes to get crushed by my own bodies inability to cooperate. Simply put... Hope Sucks. But where would we be with out it?

Rewind

I just wanted to share some picts we got from the photographer who shot my sister's rehearsal dinner. The rehearsal dinner was held at the top of Aspen Mountain and was absolutely stunning.

Arriving on top the mountain

Me and DH

Me and the Bride

Me and my sisters, welcoming the groom into Family.

My sister looking on nervously...

Yep, he had to be sworn in... we're that type of family.

During the toasts a huge storm blew in and we got trapped on top the mountain. I got to catch up with some friends while we waited for the Gondolas to be allowed to run again.

Finally, about an hour later, they re-opened the gondolas. Luckily the provided us with blankets b/c it was FREEZING!

Hope everyone is having a great hump day! I am off to my 1st tennis lesson! It should be interesting. And I did Jazzercise this morning, so I am pretty sure I am not going to be able to walk tommorow.

Midnight Sun

So this week I read Midnight Sun which of course reignited my love for all things Twilight. So on that note I thought I would share this with you all!



I am rediculously excited! Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Appt Made!

October 7th @ 9:30. Me and Dr. D have an appointment to discuss my infertility! Very exciting.

I have some forms that I have to fill out and I need to get my medical records from my OB. Seems like we're moving forward!!

Yay me!

Today I got out of bed at 5:45 and went to Jazzercise. Its a start. Now I just need to keep going. :-) A friend of mine from my MBA program teaches the 6am class at the Jazzercise studio down the street, so I thought I'd give it a try. I must say it was really fun! I've always loved classes, over the gym. Something about having other people around me, makes me more committed to actually doing the whole work out. I mean who wants to be the girl who leaves half way through a class?!? So I think I'm going to sign up for the monthly pass. I really liked it and feel great this morning (and a little sore).

Life in cube land

The above picture closely resembles where I work. Cube-land as I like to call it. And the problem with cube-land is it makes it very hard to get anything of a personal nature done. We sometimes pretend like we can't hear everything our neighbor is saying, but the truth is if you are having a conversation with in a two cube radius of me I probably know exactly what you're saying.

My mom is a Dr, and has a friend/colleague who is an RE at our local fertility clinic. I looked up his information and was happy to see that their clinic had email contact info. Living in cube-land, email communication is key to getting personal things done. So last Friday, I sent in a "information request" from their clinic website. Within 2 minutes I got a response back from the clinic asking if this was a appointment for infertility and telling me that the Dr was in my preferred office location on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. So I quickly responded back that yes this is for infertility and Tuesday or Wednesday would be good (I asked for a mid October appt). Then nothing... no response. I emailed her yesterday to check in. Still no answer. So I guess I am going to have to take to my cell phone and the hallway in another attempt to make a appointment. Hopefully I will have good news to report soon!