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Monday, April 2, 2012
Half way there
1 week down, 1 week to go. Sometimes I feel "something", sometimes I think I'm making it up in my head!! Why does the 2ww have to be sooooo long!!!
Saturday, March 24, 2012
IUI #1 is a go...
So things are underway here in TTC#2 land. I had a 17 & 15 on the left ovary and a 15 & 14 on the right ovary during Friday morning's appointment. I will be taking my HCG trigger tonight at midnight and doing the IUI Monday at 1pm. I just realized I haven't been taking prenatal vitamins so I'm going to run to the store this afternoon. Its crazy how quickly this is all happening. I'm excited but of course trying not to get my hopes up in case its a long road like last time.
Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Here we go again...
So it looks like we're headed back into treatment. I have mixed emotions about it. While we're definitely ready to get pregnant again, the thought of going through treatment again gives me a lot of anxiety. And to be totally honest, if I get pregnant with multiples I'll probably have a heart attack.
I went to my new RE this morning. He seems very nice and knowledgeable; and more importantly he specializes in the treatment of endometriosis. We spoke about my ER visit and he says he definitely believes that the pain I've been having is an indication that the endo has returned. He says when I'm done having babies he strongly recommends doing a couple Lupron series. He also said that he thought I would mostly likely end up a hysterectomy candidate. He said people with Stage I, II usually will be fine after a pregnancy but those with IV it most often comes "raging" back. He also said they'd likely have to take my ovaries, so I'd end up on hormone replacement therapy. So that was all kind of disappointing to hear.
On the bright side, we're starting treatment again! While the thought of all the appointments, needle pricks and hot flashes gives me lots of anxiety, the thought of being pregnant, and having another LO again makes me unbelievably happy. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Protocol is the exact same of the cycle I got PG with Lillian:
CD1 - OV - Dexamethason
CD4-CD8 = 100 mg Clomid
CD 11 = U/S + Labs
HCG Trigger Shot
IUI 24 Hrs after the trigger
Interesting Factoid.. apparently HCG is in short supply in the area and the pharmacies are charging an arm and a leg for it. I might opt to order some from an online pharmacy. Anyone out there have a suggestion?
Annoying factoid... RE's office doesn't accept my new company's insurance at all. Last time I had to pay OOP for procedure but all the office visits were covered by insurance. This time I am truely 100% OOP. RE's office does a flat fee of $750 for all the office visits between CD1 and ovulation. Then you have to pay $450 for the IUI. Wasn't quite prepared for that in the monthly budget :/
I went to my new RE this morning. He seems very nice and knowledgeable; and more importantly he specializes in the treatment of endometriosis. We spoke about my ER visit and he says he definitely believes that the pain I've been having is an indication that the endo has returned. He says when I'm done having babies he strongly recommends doing a couple Lupron series. He also said that he thought I would mostly likely end up a hysterectomy candidate. He said people with Stage I, II usually will be fine after a pregnancy but those with IV it most often comes "raging" back. He also said they'd likely have to take my ovaries, so I'd end up on hormone replacement therapy. So that was all kind of disappointing to hear.
On the bright side, we're starting treatment again! While the thought of all the appointments, needle pricks and hot flashes gives me lots of anxiety, the thought of being pregnant, and having another LO again makes me unbelievably happy. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Protocol is the exact same of the cycle I got PG with Lillian:
CD1 - OV - Dexamethason
CD4-CD8 = 100 mg Clomid
CD 11 = U/S + Labs
HCG Trigger Shot
IUI 24 Hrs after the trigger
Interesting Factoid.. apparently HCG is in short supply in the area and the pharmacies are charging an arm and a leg for it. I might opt to order some from an online pharmacy. Anyone out there have a suggestion?
Annoying factoid... RE's office doesn't accept my new company's insurance at all. Last time I had to pay OOP for procedure but all the office visits were covered by insurance. This time I am truely 100% OOP. RE's office does a flat fee of $750 for all the office visits between CD1 and ovulation. Then you have to pay $450 for the IUI. Wasn't quite prepared for that in the monthly budget :/
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Nothing like a trip to the ER...
... To remind you that your reproductive organs are a little messed up.
Last Wednesday night I had severe pain in my right ovary. So severe I actually drug myself to the ER just in case it was something serious. I've had pain pretty consistently on my right ovary since it was operated on, but this was substantially more painful. So I went to the ER. During Mardi Gras. And waited for hours. Visited with my dear friend, Dildocam. And was told everything looked fine. Then they sent me home with some pain meds.
But there is no way that amount of pain is "fine". I mean seriously, I felt like the ovary was going to explode inside of me. It was horrific. So I made an appointment with an RE. The bad news is my dear RE from last time has moved to the Baton Rouge office. Since I can't travel an hour each way, I booked an appt with another doctor in the same practice. I'm wondering if another Lap isn't in order? Or maybe we should just cycle now and see what happens? I'd like to avoid a lap at all costs, but also don't to waist money cycling if the endo is going to mess everything up. I'll be interested to see what he thinks.
I've also decided that once I'm done with all the baby making that ovary is getting evicted. Seriously.
Last Wednesday night I had severe pain in my right ovary. So severe I actually drug myself to the ER just in case it was something serious. I've had pain pretty consistently on my right ovary since it was operated on, but this was substantially more painful. So I went to the ER. During Mardi Gras. And waited for hours. Visited with my dear friend, Dildocam. And was told everything looked fine. Then they sent me home with some pain meds.
But there is no way that amount of pain is "fine". I mean seriously, I felt like the ovary was going to explode inside of me. It was horrific. So I made an appointment with an RE. The bad news is my dear RE from last time has moved to the Baton Rouge office. Since I can't travel an hour each way, I booked an appt with another doctor in the same practice. I'm wondering if another Lap isn't in order? Or maybe we should just cycle now and see what happens? I'd like to avoid a lap at all costs, but also don't to waist money cycling if the endo is going to mess everything up. I'll be interested to see what he thinks.
I've also decided that once I'm done with all the baby making that ovary is getting evicted. Seriously.
Friday, January 20, 2012
New Years Eve
Ok... I know a New Years Eve post on Jan 20th is pushing it a little, but I really wanted to share these photos. We hosted some friends and their babies for New Years Eve at our place. It was a ton of fun and I hope we've started a new tradition!
The babies played for the first hour of the party!
Realizing they have to go to bed :(
Of course I had to set a pretty table, with poppers included!
Ashley and I sporting our crowns.
The whole gang after dinner.
The girls enjoying some jello shots (yes, we may be 15 yrs old again!).
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Christmas Cards
I love Christmas cards! Its absolutely one of my favorite parts of the holiday season. This year we ordered from Tiny Prints. I hope they are going to be as cute in person as they are in the preview!! I can't wait for them to arrive in the mail, although I wish I could get someone to address them all for me!!
Front
Back
I start my new job tomorrow. I'm excited but nervous! Last week was super stressful trying to get everything wrapped up at my old job, so I'm hoping for a slow week.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Chaotic
That is the best way to describe my life right now. Totally chaotic.
The good news: I got a new job that I am super excited to start at the beginning of December.
The bad news: This career change has thrown my life into total chaos. On the home front, I'm having to move my daughter to a new Daycare since she has been with me at on-site daycare. Its been way more stressful than I thought it would be. There just aren't a lot of options for children under 1, and I'm having horrible anxiety about moving her. She loves her teachers & friends and has thrived at her current daycare. I'm just so nervous that I'm going to move her and she won't like it as much or she won't thrive there the way she has at her current daycare. I'm just so nervous I'm going to make a bad choice. On the work front, I'm rushing to get everything wrapped up before I go. I gave notice at then end of October hoping that it would allow sufficient time for me to transition everything to my replacement. 2.5 weeks out, no transitioning has occurred and I'm still carrying a huge workload. Add to this a HUGE court proceeding on one of my contracts which has required me to produce no less than 10,000 pages to the courts and needless to say things aren't going to be wrapped in a neat little bow when I leave. This is, of course, causing more anxiety. And then there is all the usual anxiety that comes with learning a new company and a new job.
AHH! Why does this all have to be stressful. I'm literally a ball of stress.
The good news: I got a new job that I am super excited to start at the beginning of December.
The bad news: This career change has thrown my life into total chaos. On the home front, I'm having to move my daughter to a new Daycare since she has been with me at on-site daycare. Its been way more stressful than I thought it would be. There just aren't a lot of options for children under 1, and I'm having horrible anxiety about moving her. She loves her teachers & friends and has thrived at her current daycare. I'm just so nervous that I'm going to move her and she won't like it as much or she won't thrive there the way she has at her current daycare. I'm just so nervous I'm going to make a bad choice. On the work front, I'm rushing to get everything wrapped up before I go. I gave notice at then end of October hoping that it would allow sufficient time for me to transition everything to my replacement. 2.5 weeks out, no transitioning has occurred and I'm still carrying a huge workload. Add to this a HUGE court proceeding on one of my contracts which has required me to produce no less than 10,000 pages to the courts and needless to say things aren't going to be wrapped in a neat little bow when I leave. This is, of course, causing more anxiety. And then there is all the usual anxiety that comes with learning a new company and a new job.
AHH! Why does this all have to be stressful. I'm literally a ball of stress.
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