Lucky Lefty

Apparently now that I am endo-free, I am having a significantly better response to clomid than I did before. The left ovary is a rock star! Right now I have two mature follies (17 and 18), and then another two that are slightly smaller (12 and 13). There are also a few small follies on the right and on the left that won't make it. The nurse thought I would trigger tonight and do the IUI Wednesday morning, but she had to check with the doctor.

I expressed my concern about having 4 possible mature follicles. She said the the 12 would be a 14 at iui and the 13 would be a 15 at iui, so technically they could be fertilized but she said not to worry. My chances of high order multiples are very slim with an IUI. Obviously this makes me a little nervous, but the reality is I could have 4 eggs and not get knocked up, so I guess its a crap shoot in the end.

It funny that my left is doing so well because because my right one feels totally engorged. I actually thought this weekend that I might have ovulated already because I was having a lot of discomfort on my right ovary, but I guess not. Overall, I am really excited. And hopeful. YAY!

Anxiety

I have a sister that suffers with anxiety and I've never really understood it. In my mind, if there is nothing really stressful going on, what do you have to be so anxious about? Well recently, I think I've learned what anxiety is all about. It started when I was up in IL for training. I would wake up in the morning really anxious for no reason. I didn't have anything to be really stressed about, nothing that I could pin point as the cause for my anxiety, yet I was really anxious. I thought it was probably just being in unfamiliar surroundings, and kinda brushed it off. I hoped that when I returned home, it would go away.

Wrong.

I don't know what is going on, but I am totally anxious all the time. I wake up completely stressed because I didn't sleep well due to being anxious about the coming day. Then I go to work, and am anxious all day long. I am in the middle of some very stressful stuff at work, but nothing that I can't reasonably handle. I just don't know how to shake this feeling of anxiousness. Its so frustrating. I haven't worked out all week because I've been so busy at work that I've needed to come in early so maybe that is the cause. But I just wish I could get it to stop. I'm going to try work out every morning next week. Maybe relieving some energy will help?

Anyone out there have any tips they'd care to share?

OMG

OMG....On 2 fronts.

First, I went to the concert Saturday night. At the last minute my mother's friends cancel on her, so she had two extra floor seats. So DH and I dumped our club level seats, and sat on the 12th row right by the catwalk that ran down the center of the arena. It was an amazing concert!! Some photos:

Lady Antebelleum

Rockin out at the end of the catwalk

Coming by to say goodbye

Tim. I think he's singing to me.

He was sooo good.

Still Rockin' out!

The other OMG is one I did to my self. On Sunday we had a lot of yard work to do. I went outside with a strappy dress on to fuss at my husband for not wearing sun screen. 3 hours later I came in super sunburned. I look like a red lobster. I don't know how I got so distracted out there. So then came to fun part....Clomid Day 2. The outside of me was fried, and then I had to take a medicine that makes your body feel like its on fire. Not a recipe for a good night sleep. I don't think I've ever been so hot in my life. If I could have slept in a meat locker I would have. Yikes. Remind me never to do that again.

Infertility Etiquette

Just came across a wonderful article about Infertility Etiquette (LINK HERE) on JennandTonica's blog. I wish there was a polite way to share it with the fertile world. ;-)

1 more day until I go HOME!!!! YAY!! I have missed my friends, my family, my puppas and most of all my hubby! This has been a long two weeks!

And the most exciting thing?! Saturday we are going to see:

And

I am so stinkin excited!!!

Cycle 20 - IUI #2

CD1. And there went my chance of having a 2010 baby. Sigh. Although, if I get knocked up this cycle, my due date would be 1/11/11 which is kinda cool. (yes, I always check what my due date would be on CD1... its a sick ritual).

I've got mixed feelings right now. I'm sad that I wasn't one of those woman who got pregnant after their laparoscopy. I was really hoping I was one of those women. I've also been under a rash of pregnancy announcements this week (3 in total), so that's had me in serious pity party mood. But on the other hand, I get to start treatment again!! YAY! I am soo hopeful that this will work for us. I have a friend who got a lap about a month before me. She just finished her first medicated/IUI cycle post lap and found out she's pregnant (make that 4 announcements this week)! So that has made me very hopeful! I really really hope this is it!

And so begins cycle 20 & IUI #2. Bring on the hot flashes!

Happy Easter!

Although I was away from my family and friends, I must say it was a wonderful Easter. The project I work on in New Orleans is supported by our office up here in the Quad City Area. Because of that, I have come to know a lot of co-workers who live in the area. For Easter I was extended two wonderful invitations. The first was to attend church and lunch with one co-worker and his friends and family. And the second invitation was to do mid-afternoon Easter dinner. I accepted both!! I met coworker #1 and his crowd and headed to the arena near my hotel. They go to a large Baptist church (3000+ members). Because of the large turn out expected for Easter, they had moved the service to the arena. I go to a small Lutheran church, so this was quite a difference worship experience than I am used to. But it was really fun and the minister had a great Easter message. After church, we went  brunch at a restaurant nearby. Once I was done there, i headed up to my room and dropped off my leftovers and then hopped in the car for dinner with co-worker #2. It was sooooo nice to have a home cooked meal. And I got to spend 4 hours with her wonderful family. It was a really nice day.

Then I came home and got to watch this:

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This was a really wonderful story for me to catch because when I worked for the federal government in DC, the main project I worked on was setting up a supply chain to delivery HIV/AIDs drugs to 15 focus countries identified in President Bush's PEPFAR Program. I left when the project was about 2 years in. Its so nice to see that all our blood, sweet and tears has truly made a difference.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter!

Maggie-ma-goo

Maggie misses her momma.